i wanna grow old with you ♥

Every time I see this video, my heart can’t stop saying that

 ‘I want to be like this! So cute’

Heee~

i wonder if my dream to grow old with him will become reality or not!

I hope he will be my first and last love!:)

AMINNNN~

Anyway, i still believe that 

ajal, maut, jodoh dan pertemuan itu ketentuan Allah SWT.

so if anything happen, i have to accept it! :)

However, for sure it will be really hard for me to forget someone who fills my life with colours!

Maybe i have to block him ?

Or ermmm,become a playgirl?

hahaha

I cannot think of it!
i don’t have any idea on how to react if anything happen!

Luckily, i have my friends besides me!

I know they will give me support and strength!

and they will advise me until i recover!

Anyway, regarding this video, i have a little conversation with mr.bee at my fb!

Take a look of it!

*i will be the red 1 n he is the blue 1.:)

adew certain boley,,adew yg xley,,huhuh

T____T.ap yg x blh???~

bsuh pgan,,mkn u kne wt!!!

alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

T___________________________T

xley mls2!!!

tptpttppttptptptpptptptt.....:(

tp ap???

tp x romantik laaa cm2!

cube kalo i msk,u tukang kaco~
i cuci pinggan,u tlg lap2 n susun2~
heee
comel kan??♥

kalo cmtu ok la,,boley terima =)

and ade 2 da ngarot2 da ngn rahim n cik tira azhar.

pasal madu,naruto,dragonball smue da kuar!heh~

kalo bab2 ngarot mmg no.1~

tp ni smuee sala lesboku 2 jgk!

stat ckp pasal naruto bagai..

haishh.

ak lupe2 pasal dragonball still nk mng guk!

x nk kala 2!

masing2 duk defend stand masing2!

as a result,berlambak laa komen kat c2!

nk tgk lebih lanjut?

rujuk sini!

anyway,ade sum1 ckp cmni:

"awak,,sorry sgt2 ap yg brlaku,ap yg sye wt kt awk, ap yg wt awk cdey, ap yg wt awk geram,ap yg wt wk penin,sorry 4 everythin."

*nk bunge2 kejap!hee~*

k.da penat da ngarut.sory korg sbb kne bce bnde2 yg x berfaedah ni!heee~until we meet again~*poyo2*.haha

p/s:lg 2 ari nk kne blk uia!! T__T

miss..

I miss my old me.

I miss myself who is hard to cry.

I miss myself who is always laughing.

I miss myself who is always available for her friends.

I miss myself who do not think so hard.

I miss myself who do not involve with any love matters.

I miss myself who can manage her feelings.

I miss myself who is not so sensitive.

I miss myself who do not need a man in her life.

I miss myself who do not become coward easily.

I miss myself who do not become so ‘gedik’.

I miss myself who do not 25/7 with her phone.

I miss myself who love 2 gossips.

I miss myself who take care of her friends so much and always think about them.

I miss myself who always have enough credits when my friends text me or need me to solve their problems.

I know...

 I really know...

I’m changing!

Every1 is changing.....

So do me...

But,

Right now...at this moment...I just missed my old me BADLY!

But,

I know...

I can’t change myself into the old 1...

I can’t make a U-turn ...even if I want 2, it will be really hard....

Dear Friends, 

I want to tell u...

Even tough I’m changing...

U will always be inside my mind and heart...

Our memories together will never fade!

I will always remember our moments together...

I love all of u!

Really2 miss u all...

Thanks to all my friends for giving me support when I need it.

Thanks to all my friends that calm me down when I was so afraid to get my results.

Thanks to all my friends that hear my problems.

Friends,

Lately,

i know, 

u have 2 hear many problems from me.

N it’s not serious problems at all.

It’s just a simple matter.

but I took it seriously!T__T

u doesn’t say anything about it...

U just listens to me...

Thanks to u,my friends!

Especially my bestfriends*spe trase angkat tgn cpt!:)*

Last but not least,

sye syg awk smue sgt33!kalo awk x syg sye pwn xpe..sbb sye yakin awk tipu!:P

special thanks to:

emg+sss,

newtonatorz

selandarian

pu3 friends

uia friends

all my bestfriends!

syg kamo smue sgt333!:)

p/s:my result is not so good but ALHAMDULILLAH:).anyway,.hate 2 say this,but,i have 2 repeat my English!n it have 9 credit hours!OMG!but its ok.becoz i pass other papers.what HE give to me is more than enough.THANX ALLAH!:)*wlupun kadang2 terdetik jgk cm sedih!:)*

CURRENT MOOD:

PENIN!SERABUT!KUSUT!PENAT!

what should i do?

He gives me support every time I need it.

He gives me strength every time I feel so weak.

He always besides me when I feel so needed.

He always did something that cheers me.

He knew how to cool me up.

He will contact me when he knew I am not ok.

Sound cool right?

But,

What if all these sentences are vice versa from what really happened to me?

Should I be grateful?

Or

Should I regret it?

Should I think about it?

Or

Should I take it easy?

What should I do when all of these keep on repeating in my life and I don’t like it at all?

Does anyone know how to deal with these?

I don’t have any experience about these so it’s really hard for me!

Even if I don’t want to think about it, my mind doesn’t want to follow me!

It keeps on running on my mind and I can’t take it anymore!

And I don’t have any idea on how to manage these kinds of things!

Can u stop repeating these? Can u?

I know u cant...:(

That is why I don’t know what to do...

U will always like that and I will always like this!

I’m sick of these but I don’t want to lose u!

Because losing u is worse than this.

Having to be alone without u besides me is a nightmare!

Leaving u is the last thing I will do.

But i need to stop these kinds of feeling!

It does really irritate me!

Today, 

i will get my sem1 results...

I really need u!

Can u please support me and don’t leave me like this?

I have really bad feelings about this result.

I don’t think i will pass it with flying colours.

I don’t think my pointer will make my parents happy.

I think I will fail at least one subject!

I think i will repeat many subject!

I have to prepare mentally and physically(maybe?) if i get bad results!

and,

What afraid me the most is that i will not taking engineering programme anymore!!

I’m so afraid that the department will send me into the ICT programme.

Arrghhhh!!!!

I feel so dizzy!

I want to cry!

I don’t want to know my result!

I don’t want to check it!

T_______________________________T

Anybody, help me!

p/s:he message me and said, “nanti kang ckp sye wat bnde yg sme”.haha. it really happened! sorry!if u messages me earlier, i will not write this kind of thing!       

kesygan~:)

yeaayyyyY~~
2day nk jumpe en.lebah!
x saba,xsaba,xsaba!
ahahahahahhahaa
syg,wait 4 me k?
i mandi,siap2 ni smuee
jap g kte jumpe!
ngn cik tira n kwn die!
:P
k.
2 jep~~
daa~
p/s:post makin lme makin pendek!t laaa ak wat pnjng2!:)