i hope u will read this with peace

hello there!
actually,i don’t have any intention to update this blog!

but i don’t know why,i just need to tell something here because i don’t know how to say it without hurting anybody..

huh!

but i know i will,especially when i write it here!

hurmm

i don’t post this entry to fight with anybody!

so don’t get any hard feeling when u read this!

u know,

sometimes,we just need to learn when to hide our feeling and when we should express it!

Especially when you want to express your loved to your special one!

u know,sometimes,we just need to accept what HE give to us!
there must be a reason why HE let something happen to u!

if someone don’t love u but u love him so much,u have to do something to stop loving him!

i know it is hard for u to forget someone that u loved

someone that u really3 trust and really3 kind to you!

who know u really well and can make u feel happy even u have many problems!

a person who makes ur life brighter and even make u dont know what is the feeling of SAD!

but hell yeah!u can if u want to!

it is just that u afraid to feel alone!

u afraid to face the truth that he is not the one that love u anymore!

and of course,u just afraid to lost him!

u will and ABSOLUTELY feel that as long as u with him,u will not feel so much hurt rather than he leave u!

as long as he keep with u,it is ok to u!

no matter what he do,what he say and what he think!

i know very well this kind of feeling!

maybe u would say,im different from u!

but what i feel right now is just the same with u!

he leave me alone but i love him so much!

i cant live without him!

i need him by my side!

i give him my heart,my soul and almost everything to him!

so???

does this mean he cant leave me and will be by my side forever????

does loving him will guarantee me that he will love me forever???

then????

what should i do???

should i keep thinking that i cant live without him???

no!

i still have to move on with my life!

he will not come back to me!

even if i cry so much until i blind,i cant make him love me back!

right?

u cant force someone to love u!

perhaps u might think that  u do not have any intention to force him.

but if u always say or write that u love him,like him,cannot live without him in somewhere public,do you think he do not feel anything?

especially when you know he will absolutely know what u feel when u write it or say it there.

i know you need to express what u feel,but u can make other solution right?

maybe u can create another place for u to say about him!

a place that you know he will never reach and know about it!

this is just an option from me...i dont want anybody to know that u love him so much..

y??

lets see if u are at his place!
think,what would you do if this kind of thing happen to u??

is someone love u so much but u just cant give your heart to him?

think!

that is what i did!

and it really help!

i don’t say u cant love him...but,

u know,sometimes we just need to hide what we feel!

especially from him!

the one that we loved!

why?

because we did not fall in love with someone on the condition he will love us too...there are no condition in love...

so keep loving him!

i don’t ask u to straight away forget him!

i just want u to give a try!

even  tough its hurt, but it must be a reason why something happen to us!

just believe in HIM and our fate!

then,everything will be ok!

u will feel some peace in your heart when u let him go..

y??
because,when u see the one that u loved happy without u..u should be happy too!

as long as he can smiling brightly without your absence,it is absolutely ok!

do u understand??

i hope so..

please33,don’t think that i want to have some fight with you!

yeah,you who know this is for YOU!:)

why??because im not writing this entry so that i will lost my friend!

my really2 true friend!

i dont want this entry to be the reason why we cant be like before!

i dont  want him to be the reason why i lost my friend!

i dont want my friend,ANY OF MY FRIEND,to feel what i feel!

i hope u understand!

:)

this picture tells everything!:)

p/s:this entry is longer than i thought!=_=

EMPTINESS

pernah tak korang rase idup korang kosong sgt 

walaupun korang hepy,korang gelak,korang mkn,korang gossip..

tp deep in ur heart,EMPTY.rase LOST.

pernah x?

pernah jgk x korang rase jauh dgn org yang tersangat dekat ngn korang..

korang slalu contact die..korang slalu meseg die..

tp korang sedar..makin hari,korang makin jauh dgn org 2...

and korang x tao nak wat ape..

korang xtao nk rapat ngan orang 2 balik cmne..

pernah x???

pernah jgk x korang rase takot...

takot korg kne tnggl oleh org yg sgt korang syg..

yg korang x pernah syg org cm korang syg die..

yg korang x tao nk wat ap kalo org 2 tngglkn korang...

pernah x???

n pernah x korang rase korang nk benci sumone..

nk lupekan sumone..nk stop piker pasal sumone...

tp korang x dpt...korang x blh...korang X AKAN..

n korang x de idea macam mane!

pernah x???

kalo pernah..aku pown da rase cm korang..

kalo x pernah..korang mintaklahh korang xkan rase cmni...

sbb bler rase cmni..korang x tao what the best desicion..

n korang mmg blh wat keje bodo!trust me!

people can commit suicide because of this matter! 

but 1 thing 4 sure..i will try my best from not doing something fool...

INSYAALLAH,ill NEVER done something stupid..

especially when im the one that advise my friends form not doing this kind of thing..

i mish u!:( give me my bee back!cpt2 au!:)

okie.enough with emo2 ni smue.

da lame aku x update blog kan???ade laa dekat sebulan!hee~

tp aku mmg da bese pwn x update lme2~smpi 11bln pwn perna!:P

blog is not one of my obsession.so,aku mmg slalu menganaktirikan blog ni!

kepade yg nk aku update 2*wlupun ckit jep*,ni aku da update!haaa,bce puas2!

latest ni pown aku update bnde bodo jep kn?whahaha.aku mmg xde mud nk berblog skunk ni~:(

a lot of things happen and aku pwn cam sgt bz lately!da bpe lame aku x blk umah..rindu kot!hurmm.

k lah.sampai dcni sje..hope2 aku rajin nk update blog..=_='

tp ni pwn aku update sbb tgh bosan sorg2 dlm bilik~T____T.

roommate aku p beli tiket.bgn2 tgk da kne tnggl!wuuuuuuuuu~ 

korang tgk post ni pwn berkaler2.hahaha.nampak sgt aku bosan kan??:P

p/s:en.lebah n saye ok sje.cume ade certain things happen.jgn sala sangke!:)

hehehehehee.typing2~

When I’m typing a post for Facebook.

When I’m typing an essay for school

p/s:this is what actually happen to me just now!fuh~rindu blog!tp mls nk update!jumpe lg~:)

jusco.matrix dan kawan2ku!:)

okie!
sumpah da lme x update kan??
hee~
im so sorry!
i dun have enough time(on other hand,MALAS) 2 update my blog!
n333,my mid sem is around the corner!
next week kot!
ade comp 1!T________________T
okie2.yg ats2 ni just random talk..
nothing 2 do wif my topic!
wahahaha
act,i want 2 share with u 1 story..
ceritanyee bermula begini....
*ringtone ph ak berbunyik*,n aku pwn tgk laaa ph ak..
skali tgk,EH22!!SOPHIE laaa!!
ngn xcitednyee ak pwn angkat laa ph!*padahal tgh bru bgn tdo 2!:P*
"soooopppphhhiiiieeee~~~",nada gedik seperti slalu!
"haja,ko kat ne?aku nak dtg uia ni~"sophie pwn ckp ngn SANGAT COMEL!
ak ngan nada kecewa nyee~
"alaaaaaa,aku kat semban...ko dtg laa cni!nk jumpe ko~"
tetbe die pwn pegi laaa tanya PAKWE DIE YG SPORTING!
tetbe jep sophie ckp,
"ok haja!aku dtg semban!"
wow!
aku rase cm mimpi gler!!
cm,eh2,betol ke ak da bgn tdo ni~?
den setelah aku agak berjanggut laa jgk tunggu mereka berdua dtg,siap x ikot mak aku p kenduri kawin au!
semata2 sbb aku takot dorg datang ak xde kat umah..
tp 2 baru aku...
blm kawan aku lg sorg,qurrot..
wahaha.die tunggu aku jep da lame.
ni die kene tunggu lak mereka berdua.
so die DOUBLE LAMA menunggu~*blh ke?:p*
k2.sambung2!*ni laa kelemahan ak,melalut lebih!T___T*
den da dpt jumpe dorg kat petronas,aku pwn drive laa amik qurrot,n kiteorg pwn pegi laaa jusco!
weee~
aku mule2 nak suruh pakwe die 2 blanje kenny,tp disebabkn ak BAIK,aku pown suh die blnje pizza JEP!!:p
owh ye,bygkn aku makan tgh hari kul 4 ptg!
n aku x breakfast~
kecian kan????
n33,disebabkn aku tao korg akn kecian kat aku,aku telah mengambil keputusan utk memakan 4keping pizza!T_____________________T
aku x tao knape ngn perut aku!
aku bace doa makan au!!!*kalo x silap*
best gler dpt jumpe mereka ber3!!!
si alip*pakwe sporting itu*,telah membuatkn aku memakan byk pizza!*boo die!!wahahaha
aku x tao npe aku pandang muke die aku jd lapa!
ciss!
mmg xleh jumpe slalu!kalo x ade lak seorg lebah crk seorg madu bru!:P
k2,nak djadikan cerita,aku pown tetbe rase cam nak pegi matrix pilah!
aku x tao nape,maybe sebab bufday my superduper bestie,naniey,arini!!*t2 la aku cte pasal naniey ni*
so,kiteorg pwn pecut laa ke pilah kul5.30 ptg!!
padahal mak aku da sound awal2 da before kuar umah,
"balik before kul 6!!"
adelah 3/4 kali mak aku ulang!
tp disebabkn kerinduan aku kat mereka2 di pilah 2,aku tekad p pilah au!!
*muke bangge*
bile nak dtg pilah 2,aku kol laa naniey,ckp aku nak datang..
tp tetbe jep sophie ckp die baru nak wat surprise..
so aku yg mmg mempunyai otak mengenekan org ni pwn kol laa naniey balik..
"naniey,aku x dapat dtg laaa,bapak aku dapat tao aku p pilah,so die suh patah balik..sory weyh..alaaa~nk jumpe ko~"
sore time 2 cm frust gler laa kan!
naniey pwn ngan nada yg mmg aku tao sedih+frust gler pwn ckp,
"xpelaa aja,len kali laa kite jumpe..bler ade rezeki"
pastu aku pwn ckp before letak ph.
"ok,ko p laa makan2 ke ap dulu k.sory sgt222".
niat aku biar dorg makan,den aku sampai x yah nk suh dorg turun2 lg!
aahahahaha
den  bile da smpi kat matrix 2,tgk2 nani mmg tgh mkn2 ngn kawan aku lg sorg,ayu!
heee~
aku pwn teros laaa berlari2 ke die n melompat2 sambil pelok die!
habis aku kena pukul,cubit ngan naniey!
whahahaa
tp yg terharunyee,naniey tros nanges bler die nampak aku!
syg kan die kat aku??
i know,i know~*muke bngge*
den aku pwn spent laa mase aku ngan dorg!
seyes rase nak pegi lagi laa matrix pilah!
kebetulan td,ex-laki aku,pwn ade kat matrix pilah 2!!
tp x sempat nak jumpe die...
T____T
tp xpe,dpt jumpe bdk2 ni pwn da more than enough!
aku rindu sgt dorg!
td mmg best!!
n aku makan lagi skali kat pilah 2!!*main point ni!!!wahahahaah*
aku x de laa sempat sgt nak bergosip ngan naniey,tp BANYAK JEP gosip!
wahahahahaa
paham x ayat aku 2????
x paham,abaikn!:)
okie laaa,banyak kan aku membebel???
act,aku nak letak pic2 kiteorg td,tp malas laa~~
next time k?
sbb td kat matrix aku nyee bateri kong,so pic2 kt matrix ade kat qurrot.
aku x amik lagi dr die..
so t bler aku da dapat aku akn update k!
:)




p/s:aku da try sehabis boleh 4 mengcompress*bm aku mmg trok* kan entry kali ni!sory,MASIH PANJANG!:(