19.10.10

what should i do?

He gives me support every time I need it.
He gives me strength every time I feel so weak.
He always besides me when I feel so needed.
He always did something that cheers me.
He knew how to cool me up.
He will contact me when he knew I am not ok.
Sound cool right?
But,
What if all these sentences are vice versa from what really happened to me?


Should I be grateful?
Or
Should I regret it?


Should I think about it?
Or
Should I take it easy?


What should I do when all of these keep on repeating in my life and I don’t like it at all?

Does anyone know how to deal with these?


I don’t have any experience about these so it’s really hard for me!
Even if I don’t want to think about it, my mind doesn’t want to follow me!
It keeps on running on my mind and I can’t take it anymore!
And I don’t have any idea on how to manage these kinds of things!

Can u stop repeating these? Can u?
I know u cant...:(

That is why I don’t know what to do...
U will always like that and I will always like this!
I’m sick of these but I don’t want to lose u!
Because losing u is worse than this.
Having to be alone without u besides me is a nightmare!
Leaving u is the last thing I will do.
But i need to stop these kinds of feeling!
It does really irritate me!


Today, 
i will get my sem1 results...

I really need u!

Can u please support me and don’t leave me like this?

I have really bad feelings about this result.
I don’t think i will pass it with flying colours.
I don’t think my pointer will make my parents happy.
I think I will fail at least one subject!
I think i will repeat many subject!
I have to prepare mentally and physically(maybe?) if i get bad results!
and,
What afraid me the most is that i will not taking engineering programme anymore!!
I’m so afraid that the department will send me into the ICT programme.
Arrghhhh!!!!
I feel so dizzy!
I want to cry!
I don’t want to know my result!
I don’t want to check it!
T_______________________________T
Anybody, help me!

p/s:he message me and said, “nanti kang ckp sye wat bnde yg sme”.haha. it really happened! sorry!if u messages me earlier, i will not write this kind of thing!       

18 comments:

tira azhar said...

daijoubu.
well, u have my support at least.
:)

jaja said...

yes~
i knw i hve u!
i knw i have all my frenz~
even korg xde ngn ak,ak tao ak ad dlm ingatan korg 2~
tp ak takooottttt.
T__________________________T

zuhaidazunairi said...

nape ja ? encik lebah ko mane ?
btw , ko ade aku kan :)

jaja said...

yes zu!thnx sgt33.en.lebah ak,die MISSING IN ACTION!:(

Anonymous said...

nothin is perfect,,msti adew sumthin yg spoil,,tol x,,huhuhu,,but mr.bee try 2 be so nice to en.madu =)
hope tuan putri phm ,,hehehe

jaja said...

btol my tuanku try 2 be so nice wif die tuan pu3???
betol??
:P

Anonymous said...

betol la,,,,,die je rse i x wt pape,,
huhuhuhuhu,,,n3 nice watch =P

jaja said...

mmg die xde wat pape pwn~
:((
sje nk sindir kan pasal jam 2!
gedik!
ahhahahaha

Anonymous said...

hahha,,jgn set time kul 1.30 pm au,,,
huhuhuhuhuhu

jaja said...

beee!!!
eeeeee~
2 sbb smalam i x leh tdo laaa
i tdo kul 4 au!
hepy sgt smalm~:P

Anonymous said...

hahahhaaha,,b4 nie pon bgun kul 1 jgak,,hahahha,,ops,,trckp =P

jaja said...

u!!!!!!!!
xbek au!!!
:((
2 pwn x sngaje~:)

Anonymous said...

u cannot just hoping 4 he that is same as u- a human,but u can always hoping n waiting 4 HE, the almighty,the only ONE, which is our GOD. ALLAH

jaja said...

yup!
of coz i will always hoping 4 ALLAH..
more than anybody in this world.
thank u 4 ur advise!:)

Anonymous said...

welkem.....:)

jaja said...

hehehehehehe.:)*muke bek*

Anonymous said...

muke bek?

jaja said...

owh..xde pape lah~:)